I wonder if its possible to have a heart attack or some kind of attack from stress. I'm almost 100% positive but at the moment I'm so confused and nervous I don't trust my judgment.
My results are tmr and I had my scans this mornin and I'm incredibly nervous and stressed and I'm crying and I'm sad and I feel so alone in this it's pathetic. Because I know I have lots of family and friends that care for me but I can't talk to a single one of them about what I go through!!!!
What am I suppose to say to them!!! Oh guys I need to talk about my death today!!!! Like WTF
This just isn't right on any level, it's unfair and just feels horrible.
I feel like I have a huge bowl of water that insanely heavy on my chest n I can't breath. My body feels okay and I'm not in any major pain so I'm hoping for good news but who the hell knows.... I'm praying God has a plan for me and I'm only nervous because I don't know his plan and its unknown to me.
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Hi, I don't know you at all, but I was doing some research for a project and stumbled across your blog as a result. You are not alone in this world. The mere fact that you ever feel that way should tell you that you are not because many of us feel alone for many reasons. In that commonality, we are never alone.
I'd just like to say, that you are very brave. Perhaps that sounds empty, and maybe you're thinking "Shut up, I'm not running into a burning building to save a baby, what bravery is there in being ill?" It's not in being ill, it's in getting up every day knowing you are and facing the things you must face to try to become well again. It's going through every moment of every day, not knowing what can or will happen with your health and life. There is a bravery there, in not just shutting down or ending it all on your own terms. Keep the faith love. Much respect and good wishes to you.
p.s. Congratulations on your engagement.
- Leigh
Leigh, I may not know you but I always appreciate anyone's worldly advice or opinion. Thank you for your kind and encouraging words, totally made my day so much better.
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