To my Mom

Happy Birthday, i know that my cancer returning is not wat you wished for this year or ne year for that matter.
Your only wish was for me to be better. . . . . . . . . i'm sorry if i ever disappointed you.
You have given up your entire life for me to stand by my side and help me fight my battles with cancer. I know you wanted to fight it for me . . . . . i'm sorry you cant, im sorry you have to watch me go through this war once again.
No matter how cold or hurtful i have ever been, you were always there for me to go back to if i needed you. I didnt always want to listen to you, but i knew that what ever you had to say was only for my benefit and not harm.
We might fight constantly but that is just how our relationship is, I love how if we fight and at the end we just laugh and look at eachother, a look that just says i'm happy to have you here for fight with at the very least.
I know all ur tricks and all ur sayings but you still tend to amaze me from time to time, you amaze me with your strength, bravery and courage everyday for being able to get up in the morning to take care of me. I do notice and i dont tell you nearly as much as i should about how much i trully appreciate all taht you do for our family.
You hold us together when we are about to fall apart. I know you wish this hadnt happened, but God chose me to carry this burden. . . . . . . .we both know that God doesnt let people carry wat they cant handle. I'm sorry that you couldnt win this war, i'm sorry you couldnt protect me.
I will always love you, no matter how hard times will get.