Today is April, 23,09 its almost exactly 9 months since i was told those just completly magical words you ARE Cancer free! I honestly thought it would be easy to just roll into my normal routine again, yeah totally wrong it was soo much harder than i even imagined and i still am trying to work my way back to what i used to call normal life. I guess i just realized that I personally and life as I also personally know it will never be the same again, funny because that sounds such a corn ball statement but its true and i understand why they say it. The past 9 months have been one hell of a roller coaster. Went to Cancer camp for the first time and i was amazed at how at home i felt to be in a place where every since solitary person that was in that camp was touched by cancer in some form or another. The feeling of hope saftely and acceptance could make anyone start crying! it was the funnest week of my life i made new friends and got so much closer to ones i had. I started school again back at my "old" high school with a bunch of kids that were going to be graduating in 2009 (i would be among them) to me they are still gr 11s and i cant help by feel completly robbed of what was supposed to be my most memorable senior experience! So i'm at school finishing up and getting my diploma, and starting to work and figure out what i want to do with my life. I went through a bunch of firsts again, first b-day, first x-mas, new years etc etc not to mention i turned 18!! =) I also lost 2 more people that ment a ot to me Jessica Millicent Tait and Denis Black although i will miss them dearly i know they are with me and i can feel them in everything i do. I'm almost finished high school and i still stand in awe of what i went through, today I still continue to present to science 30 classes about cancer and am a spokesperson for Canadian cancer soceity and i'm happy to be a part of cancer awarness. Even though I dont have Cancer at the moment it amazes me how much it still is apart of my life and my everyday thoughts. I still have a drive to live my life now i guess i'm just trying to figure out what is living what does that mean to me!!!
Other than those i'm happy to report I have my own hair! its growing quite nicely and i have eyebrows and eyelashs and my nails have grown back and i'm not throwing up every other hour lol.
Its very difficult to put 9 months worth of events and facts and surprises down in one post but it did happen it happened quickly and before i know it a year will be done. I didnt realize how exhausted i was after treatment i still dont have all my every back, but slowly month by month i feel a little more up beat with energy. Well this is me signing out and starting to post a lot more often because I can.
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