Today is July 29th of 2008, I had my scans earlier this month to see how everything looked! I am now offically Cancer Free! Me, 17yr old Alora Deonie has beaten Cancer . . . i can actually call myself a survivor of Cancer! I still dont think that it has all sunk in yet, i still feel like something is weighing on me a bit! I've waited so long to hear those words so that i wouldnt feel so nervous so that i could actually stop thinking for a moment and just breath with no worries for one moment!
I guess i still feel bad because i know that there are other kids that want to hear those exact words even parents and family and friends that want to hear those words too. I am of course SOOO gratful to be Cancer free and to have become a survivor of Cancer! I cant help but feel bad and utterly terrible for those who havent heard those words who are going through a rough time! I finding that i am asking myself "why me, and not them?" some of the patients are so much younger than me. . . Most of them who will beat Cancer and live the rest of there life will not even remember fighting so hard to stay alive, thats how young!
Its been ten months of fighting, 14 nauseating chemo treatments, 41 days of radiation, and well i lost count of how many times i've been poked later, I find myself done with Cancer and I cant seem to know what to do with myself.
All i am sure of right now is that I am Cancer Free!
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