June 10th 2008

So after being diagnosed with Shingles I was sent home for a week to take an antibiotic called acyclovir and I had to take about 35-40 + pills a day! I also wasn’t allowed to go anyways because if anyone didn’t have chicken pox they would have gotten it from me. But yesterday June 9th 08, I came in to the hospital for a check up and It was okay for me to walk around freely because I was not contagious anymore so I was pretty happy that I didn’t have to stay in isolation!
The same day some of the Cancer Sisters were all at the day clinic at the same time!! Which doesn’t happen very often but it was Jillian, Jessica and Me and later I found out that Tessa was also there so it was a nice reunion for all of us. We also started to plan on going to a Summer camp together so we are pretty excited about that!
But after my check up I was admitted for Chemo treatment with Doxo and I haven’t had Doxo for like four months so I wasn’t sure how I was going to take it. I was pretty surprised I took it pretty well this is the cocktail that is constant for 48 hours. So I will not be released or discharged until Thursday morning.
So this is my 13th chemo treatment out of 14th which means I only have one more to go and i’m so excited its not even funny! Okay maybe its a little funny. . . . But when I think back on my journey and my battle of Cancer I found that time went by extremely fast and strangely enough I had a great experience even though there were obviously bad days! I found that Cancer wasn’t a restriction to my life It opened life to me. . . it was like an invisible ticket for me to Start living my life to way I wanted! Many people ask me if I fear death and my answer will not change. . .of course I hope that when I die it is not painful and it is a comfortable death but I am not afraid of death . . . . But I am afraid of a life unlived! I truly don’t know what people are waiting for or what event they are waiting for to start living there life or to just appreciate what we have! I consider myself lucky everyday that I have been so lucky in everything of my life even with Cancer!