R.I.P Kayla

On May 2 2008, my good friend Kayla who has been battleing cancer for a number of years died! I was lucky to have visited her that very same day around 3pm. My heart completely shattered when i saw her for what i knew was going to be the last time! She was on her hospital bed proped up, with her oxygen mask on taken quick and short breaths. She looked beautiful in her Ocean blue gown that she wore for her graduation the day prior, they wanted to keep her in it. She had a sheer white throw over her shoulders with small tasils on the end of them. She wasnt quite alert her head was turned towards the window leaning agasint a pillow, her eyes shut.
You could almost feel the love that was in that room for her, Room 18 on unit 4E3 was filled with her closed loved ones, her mother Father her brothers and sisters and aunts and uncles and close cousins, there were a few friends me included. All i could do was look at her and remember all the times we shared together all the talks we had all the laughs and to see her struggle with every breath was heart renching. I was aloud to sit beside her bed for a while and hold her hand!
Was used to be a slim warm hand as i remembered it was swollen quite cold and clamy! You could tell right away that she was going to pass on soon it was just a matter of when. And again the loved ones and you yourself have to play that stupid waiting game again, but this time you'll be playing it for the last time. . .
Just like the beggining you'll have your round of firsts all over again this time instead of having a first WITH something it would be your first WITH out someone!
It was one of the hardest things i ever had to do since i was diagnosed with Cancer. . . . . to say "I'll see you later" for the last time to a close dear friend who was My hero! I gave her everyones love just as they asked me to because they couldnt visit her like i could have! I told her that everyone sends there love and wishes they could be there, whispered that she looked beautiful and that i'm sorry i missed her graudation the day before. that she was loved by so many and it as plainly apparent by all the support she got over the course of her treatment and all the people that filled that room! So for the last time i kissed her cheek and said "I'll see you later". . . . . .

about two and half hours later Kayla passed on. . . .
R.I.P Kayla *you were my Hero and loved you very much*