January 4th 08

Well Merry christmas and Happy New Year, seeing as they past already. Man time really is everyones enemy, it seems to go by so fast now a days i guess its about being so busy. Well i was admitted yesterday afternoon i was supossed to be in here on the 2nd but they didnt have any room. But this visit and my future visits are very different, i am now placed in isolation. This is due to a bacterial colonies problem i have called VRE. So i have to keep my distance from everyone and things like that so i dont get any one else sick. I myself isnt sick, because i’m carying i must have found away to sustain it. But its not dangerous its just that they dont want it to spread around the hospital. So that was my new years gift, a private room for now and possible future stays until i turn negative 3 times for VRE. I trully hope its soon i love people and i like hanging out with my 4E3 buddies that i’ve met and love spending time with. Unfortunately i cant because contact could cause them to catch VRE, but apparently its not as bad as they were making it sound before its just washing my hands and wearing a gown, instead of wearing gloves, a gown, and a mask.
So this visit is my 6th treatment of chemo and this is the long stay so 5 – 6 days in the hospital. Justina is also in its going to be her first 2 weeks, here and she just got her I- VAD in this morning and her bone marrow *back* pokes. She should be starting chemo today for the first time. We talked some yesterday and she said she was a bit nervous but i have no dought that she will make it through. Jessica also checked in later yesterday afternoon and she is in for chemo and should be staying the same amount of days. When i was in clinic on the 1st Jill was also here but i haven’t seen her in a while, she wasn’t feeling so well and they didn’t have any room on 4E3 so they placed her up stairs with the adults for now. Apparently she has some mouth sores but they are in her throat and it’s not going really well with the healing part. So most of us are a bit upset that I’m stuck in a room for the most part and we can’t really hang out but we can talk if they stay by the doorway and i stay on my bed.
Okay so the doctors and nurses came in just now and they said they were going to find out if the girls can safely sit by the doorway and we can talk like Justina did yesterday after dinner we were talking. It would really suck if this VRE didn’t clear im praying it will and never come back so this cancer this can go back to the better part, where you at least get to talk to your friends in the hospital.
Like really it’s hard enough having cancer, and then they stick me in an isolation room where im completely cut off from the outside. All i can use is the cell phone but really that not any fun at all. I like seeing my friend’s faces and talking to the other girls helps a lot knowing that someone else out there feels the same way you do, even though the girls are still almost strangers we all feel so close to each other.
Really last night i got no sleep im exhausted but i cant sleep during the day which sucks. They woke me up really early to do some tests i already got a CT scan, and we are waiting for a call from the nuclear medicine for me to go back there for a bone scan that needs to get done. And this afternoon i have an MRI scheduled, oh yeah fun uh huh. But i’m tired i’ll type some more later when i can think some more. . .
Okay so its later. . and turns out we had to do four tests today instread of just to, i just had an MRI and a chest scan. Uhh and i got no sleep last night because of the nurse going in and out in and out it gets very irratating. And i didnt get to eat much either. I did get to see Jessica for a few minutes because i was coming out of chest scan and she was going in so i at least got to see her. My mom also got the girls Justina and Jessica to meet and she says they hit it off haha its gonna be one big party it just sucks i have to miss it for the time being.