December 4th 07

Okay so i’m currently at the stollery clinic for more blood work and to see if i’ll actually be admitted today for some more chemo. You definatly learn a lot having Cancer. You definatly learn how to take better care of yourself and others. How compliated life can really be by having this actually having this happen. Yes having Cancer sucks more than you could image all the pills the chemo the pain emotion and physical and the needles omgoodness the needles. My veins are gonna be as hard as a rock after this. I’ve had countless needles already and i will never trully know the number because i dont intend to count it would probubly make the experience more painful.
Although this experience isnt always plesant, i trully believe that there are more up’s to this situation rather than downs. The amazing families you meet and the great staff that are working around the clock to help you. Its actually great to know that your actually getting medical help and i have the privilege of recieveing it. Many people forget about that aspect that dispite everything that has happend they are recieveing help and for me i couldnt be more thankful. I get so much and most people know that i dont ask for any thing because i realize that i have so much already. I’ve meet some great people and i cant wait to meet some more. When i first came here to 4E3 i thought i was the only one my age around the place, okay maybe i am the only thats around here my age but there are some girls that are in there teens and are completely fun to be with. Jillian is a girl i met here, her personality is amazing shes completely fearless well at least she seems that way. Jessica shes soo sweet, and her and Jill are like best friends its soo cute to see them together you see true friend ship that you didnt think could happen in such a sour circumstance.
One of the most unpleasent factors of this experience is something i like to call the waiting game. I’ve only had about 3 treatments but ive had to play this game for the most party of my stay. Today i’ve been at the hospital since 10am and had to wait until 10pm to actually get word that we had a bed for the same day. So that was a crappy wait and i think its been the longest wait they had seen in a really really long time soo we werent soo happy. You do an amazing amount of waiting but i’ll talk about that tomorrow.