December 20th 07

Okay soo i started hydration at 5:00am and then i started my actual chemo at 11:45am silly people i was supposed to start at 10:00am but no they had to take their sweet time. Uhh now on saterday i’ll finish around noon instead of like 11:00am where i could possibly go home around 1:00am if the meds are all filled out and everything. Today Kayla got a surgery because they had found more Cancer in her lung and they had to remove it so shes on the ward as well. Tessa also got admitted so we can hang out tomorrow haha. Todday was boring full of lazyness and homework omg a lot of home work i had to finish a math project so he could drop it off at my school so my teacher could mark it, i really hope i did well on it though then i’ll feel like i know what im doing in the class haha.
I’m not sure if i mentioned it yesterday but we were admitted into a private room this time room 12 at the ward and its nice at night where its quiet and theres no noise except the nurses. But i like people and the room is crazy quiet and i like to see that other people are around me its a security thing with me lol. Hum i’m so bored after i finished my homework today i was like “i wonder what everyone at school is doing?” you never thought you’d say the words “ I actual enjoyed school” before but you realize that school is where your life happens for those 12 years of your life. You get to hang out with your friends, you learn your material and then work on that material with your friends. I cant believe i’m in grade 12 already the time goes by so fast when your having fun and keeping yourself busy with school work. It was like yesterday that i could remember some of my elementary friends where in the back yard of our elementary school singing to the back street boys, the spice girls and britney spears! You wonder where the time went.
When you get diagnosed with Cancer you also realize that your “time” is very precious and should be stuffed with everything and anything you can think of. Afterall time is a universal enemy its against everything living as out biologocal clocks are ticking some faster than others like myself. And i believe its that factor or death that makes everyone treat you different. I mean normally for me when i heard the word Cancer i thought of death right away, but now you say Cancer and i only think of a new beginning instead of an end.