December 12th 07

Soo i was in the hospital until the tenth and i’ve been home for the last few days feeling like crap and all gross and icky. But ne wayy. My stay this time was quite lonsome. I hate staying at the hospital on weekends theres nothing to do at least during the week you know the teen room is open or something. I wanted to get out so badly it wasn’t even funny. I finally get out and then i dont know what to do with myself but i’m just happy that i’m out and about.
It was Kara’s last treatment and she was happy but she gets really crabby when on chemo. She had a little last day of treatment party with some of the nurses and her family came to the hospital and some of her friends in the ward. They live out of town soo her friends couldn’t come but she was happy never the less. I was soo happy for her, and i will keep her in my prayers forever and im praying she will never have to worry about this vile thing we call Cancer again.
This Cancer is gross and i wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy, i would actually say that you should love your enemy and its true you should. Because it will drive them nuts and then you get a kick out of doing it haha.
Me and my dad got back from a concert tonight it was my first one that i’ve ever been to. Kids with cancer gave us tickets to a Canadian Idol concert at the Winspear center. With three of the runners in the Canadian idol contest tour Canada and do concerts. It was nice not too exciting but just a little fun. I truly didn’t want t go in the first place, but my mom convinced me. And i’m glad i did.
I have a busy schedule ahead of me lets see i have a birthday party to go to, dinner, study date, and then chemo, and then Christmas and then new years and then chemo and then exams. People think its easy to handle cancer and then to act normal and be normal in everything else i do. I still cant believe it takes so much energy out of me just to get out of bed, try to look good decide to wear my wig or not to and just wear a hat, i sometimes ask my self whats the point in taking ne self interest in myself, i feel naked ne where i go. Like people can just see the cancer on me and i have a huge sign on the front and back of me saying look at me i have Cancer. Which i know isn’t true but you cant get that feeling out of your head. You never really realized how much cancer is around you until someone points it out.